Tag: Disfunction

  • Should we Break up the States?

     

    I have heard a few of my old friend say that the states should become their own countries.  These people also think they are patriots.  In some ways I kind of agree.  I mean our constitution is set up like a treaty if you really think about it.  Most of the states where not there at the time of the signing of it.  This would ease the tax burden on people a bit, not having to pay federal taxes.  We would only have to pay state taxes, which would be federal taxes I guess at that point.  Every country would have its own currency which would be easier to keep a closer eye on it.  This way the few would not have so much control over the many.

    This would also give many that still lived in a democracy more control over their government.  This would promote more activity in the political process which could be much better thing.  People would be more willing to stay informed if they actually thought they had a say, unlike the current system we have now.

    We could give the new countries there national guard back.  If there was a war the individual countries could come together and fight side by side.  May be do drills together annually, this way if the militaries of the countries train together they would be less likely to want to fight them.  So, there are a couple of positives but I feel there are some major drawbacks to this.

    One of the major problems I see right off the bat is what to do about the nukes.  Does anyone really trust the south with nukes?   The KKK would definitely rise to power again and the right wing religious fundamentalist, would want to kill anyone not like them or believe the same way they do.  We would be more like Europe was in the dark ages.  Hell I consider the time we are living in now the Social/Technological Dark Ages.  I is little doubt in my mind, if it were not for our current level of technology we would already be in the dark ages.  We have not yet learned how to live socially yet in this new world.

    Slavery might come back into play if we were to divide up.  I do not think it would be successful though.  The countries which did not legalize it could put major economic pressure on them.  Which brings us back to the nukes again.  How many people think that there would be a leader that might try and play that card just out of spite.  Look at our political climate right now it is crazy.

    Though slavery most likely would not last long I think, Segregation would definitely make a comeback in many parts of the country.  I feel many leaders would try to become permanent dictators, or at least try.

    I want to say right now I know that not all people in the south are bad people.  I lived in Florida for 10 years I know plenty of people from the south.  It is the people they elect that scare me.  I am a Humanist I believe in our potential as a species.  I feel we are not ready yet as a country or s species to do something like that in this country.   Then again people usually only learn when bad things happen to them, so maybe we should, just for the wake up call.

  • Loneliness is a curse

    Well I am finally going to go see suicide squad today. I have seen the reviews but I have to decide for myself. I am just so bored and cannot focus on homework Mainly because all I do for the most part any more is just work, school, eat  and sleep.  I have no social life to speak of really.

    I have always felt alone in my life not, because I didn’t have friends or family. It is because I feel they just never understood me at all.  I am one of those people who could be in a room filled with people and still just feel like I am the only person in the room.  Over the past 4 or 5 years this feeling has grown.  That is one of the reasons why I started counseling and going back to school.  I wanted to try and put myself out there and find people who have similar interests who may understand where I am coming from and why I want to do what I am trying to do.

    I have such a hard time making new friends to do stuff with.  Here I am 40 years old divorced, single and living in a mobile home older than me,fighting my depression constantly.  It is a never ending battle.  I know people do worry about me in my family, yet it is hard for me to be around them.  The last few times I had been with them it just seem that when they were talking to me they were hyper critical of me and my viewpoints, even though I try to keep it on the internet they bring it into the face to face contacts. So I just do not want to be around them.  I feel like nothing I can do in their eye is right or good enough.  They expect me to see things the way they do and I just can’t.  It is not me I look deeper into things,  I try to understand the way the world works.  This is something I have always done.  It seems to me that all they see in me is a 40 yr old who like Cartoons, horror movies, and is decent with kids.  I feel they think I do not actually look into anything of substance at all.  They prove this by the way they try and push there own morals and beliefs on me.

    Look I am who I am and believe in my own moral code.  I have always been like that.  Religion has had no affect on my moral values.  All I want is to be a good person and help others try to treat others with respect as much as possible, not alway succeeding there.  When I came out as an Atheist for the first time that is when things started going south between me and them.  My mom was like no you’re not you Agnostic.  At the time I got offended because I didn’t know then what I do now about the word and its uses.

    Being an Atheist just means I do not believe there is a god.  Agnosticism is a state of knowing.  So my mom was right to a point, but we are all Agnostics.  No one knows for sure if a god really exists or not, despite what some people may say.  A belief is a feeling not knowledge.  I have tried to believe in a god so that people would except me I have been to so many different churches done research on the matter as well as read the bible from front to back.  There is nothing there to prove the existence of a god for me.  Some people would Probably say that it is your lack of faith that causes my depression and loneliness.  This could not be farther from the truth for me.  It is the fact that my family and old friends that think that I just want to be a rebel, different, and want to mold me to the image they want.  That is what want me to be, that has been a big contributor to my depression.  Me and my mom used to be close or as close as I can get to a person emotionally.

    I had to take a break from writing this post for awhile, because I have been in tears while writing this.  My heart is heavy and I hurt so bad, but I push on.   I expose my heart to all of you out here to let you know if you feel the same way you are not alone.   You can make it through it.  It does not matter if you’re a teen, in your 40’s or in your later years you can push through this.  You are stronger than you think.  I know because I am living it with you.  I feel the pain, the anguish, fear and loneliness the as much as anyone.  Those thoughts in your head can be change but only through practice and hard work.  You just have  you just have to have faith in yourself and find your passion.  Thing do get easier the more you work at it.  It may never go away, but at least it can be more manageable for you in the long run.

    If you know and love someone who has depression take the time to try and understand them.  Let them know they are loved don’t just say it show it.  You will make it easier for them and you may save their life.  Please.

    If you have any questions on ways I have used to manage this leave a comment down below or you can message me on facebook or twitter.  I will try to respond as much as I can.

    I want to leave you all who read this with this,  You are all loved even though it may not feel like it at times you are.  I love you all and stay strong and let peace be with you all.

     

  • Cultural insanity

    Cultural insanity

    ideo that got me thinking

    I have heard the argument that the states should be divided by other Republicans before. I have just one question. Do we really trust the south with Nuclear weapons? I mean really think about how insane the right wing is in the south. They, and I am using a generalization because that’s how a lot, yet not all despise people who are not like them and are fearful. Ignorance is not bliss ignorance is fear wrapped in false beliefs spread by people who lust for power and control. We have a tendency to fear things and people they do not understand or want to try and understand. People who are self aware know this they try and change themselves to become a better human being. My biggest bitch about the U.S.A. is that as a nation we refuse to acknowledge our own failings as a country. We think we are better than everyone else. This is not true. I feel what we need is the a country’s equivalent of a psyciotrist. If we were to judge our country like we would a human, this country would have many disorders, Including but not limited to schizophrenia, bi-polar disorder, narcissistic sociopathic tendencies with an addictive personality.
    Schizophrenia, I know someone who has this condition. My biological father I have not seen the man since I was 3 years old, but in my 20’s I was able to have my first contact with his side of the family. This is when I found out about his condition. I have talked to my father over the phone and have had decent conversations with him. That was until about 3 – 4 years ago when around Christmas time, right before my divorce was final. He had gone off on me because either he really hated lawyers of he did not like the fact that my marriage had failed. I am not quite sure. He blew up on me after I had told him that I had gotten a lawyer for the divorce. It seemed it affected him more than me. Had said that I was no son of his, and that he would kill me. I did not know what to do. I knew I shouldn’t let it affect me because I had not seen the man in almost 35 years at that point. I also realized that who the fuck was he to judge he was 26 when he knocked up my mom at the age of 17. From what my mom had told me he also had gotten extremely violent with me when I was younger and was alway jumping in and out of my life. So, my mom told him to leave out of my life for my safety.
    Bi-polar I have dated a couple of Bipolar women and I am assuming that trying to date a bipolar man is about the same. They would be good for awhile happy energetic, then from out of nowhere they would turn getting extremely agitated at the smallest thing for no logical reason.
    Narcissistic A-moral sociopathic tendencies: In my youth I had a fascination with serial killers and cults. I had noticed that most of the serial killers and leaders of these cults had in common, they were all in it for themselves and said to hell with everyone else. They used ignorance and fear to control and influence people to coax them in to a trap or to do despicable things, like mass suicide, child molestation, cannibalism, murder, destruction and conning people out of money.
    These are just a few mental disorders I feel we have as a society.  In our society I feel we need t look more analytically in on our nation and start to see the true reasons all this chaos that we as a nation are a part of and start looking for real solutions.  One of the ideas I have is a class I feel we should integrate into our schools, is a class on critical thinking .  Learning how to think in a more critical manner helps us to see other peoples perspectives better.

    Another thing I feel we should focus on is getting people to live in other countries for awhile.  No I am not a saying abandon the U.S.A., but living in other countries could help us to figure out how we can better our country through seeing things the way other countries see us.  They may also have policies that work over their that could work over here as well.  This would make us a more well rounded country as a whole.  This would also help with the race divide in this country.  If people were to live with and experience things that other people go through they would not be so quick to judge others that are not like them.  Of course there would still be those who would try to push a religious agenda, yet if the government were to implement this we could make sure this does not happen for there is a separation of church and state therefore anyone working as a representative of our country would not be able to push that agenda and could be reassigned, retrained and have a mental assessment done.  If they still continue then they are sent back.